New humiliation for President Hollande

How unimaginable it is now that smoking was EVER allowed

How unimaginable it is now that smoking was EVER allowed in cinemas and pubs. It is unthinkable what we had to put up with until so recently, and now already it seems a world away. Now I look back and think I used to spend almost every day of my life in smoky cinemas or smoky pubs, for hours and hours a day. How horrific it seems to look back on, when it seemed so normal back then.

“The dégoût Rousseau now felt with regard to literature”

“The dégoût Rousseau now felt with regard to literature was not merely an intermittent emotional reaction but something that for him always went hand in hand with the act of writing. In accordance with his doctrine of the formerly unspoiled state of nature, he saw the man who reflects as a depraved animal perverted from its natural state, and reflection as a degraded form of mental energy. No one…recognised the pathological aspect of thought as acutely as Rousseau, who himself wished for nothing more than to be able to halt the wheels ceaselessly turning within his head.” — WG Sebald, A Place in the Country

If you see a young Englishman with a full beard

If you see a young Englishman with a full beard you are probably in Shoreditch or Dalston.

“Although Rousseau was by no means idle as an author”

“Although Rousseau was  by no means idle as an author in the few weeks he spent on the Île Saint-Pierre, in retrospect he nonetheless came to see his time as an attempt to free himself from the exigencies of literary production. He talks of how he longs now for something other than literary renown, the scent of which, as he says, revolted him from the moment he first got a whiff of it.” — WG Sebald, A Place in the Country

 

I was never really autistic

I was never really autistic, despite my book being titled Autismus; I just had such crippling inability to cope in society and in social relationships, and in any room with other people in it, that it resembled autism in my disconnect from everybody around me (I did go to the Maudsley Hospital once for a series of tests and sessions, and then finally I was called in to a panel of experts to be told their professional diagnosis was that I was in fact homosexual. At this moment my faith in the psychiatric profession finally expired. Oh yes I have enjoyed lots of men giving me hand jobs, and have even endured one or two men giving me blow jobs, and do get a thrill from walking into a dark porn cinema full of men with their naked swollen cocks out in the half light, but that does not make me gay, ok? Polymorphously perverse, perhaps! An erotomane, definitely! A scopophiliac, absolutely!). Still to this day, my wife will go out for lunch with 8 of her friends and I see pictures of them sitting there smiling at the camera, and I know I could not exist at that table; I would feel like I would rather be dead than having to sit there at that table; I could not bear it. It would be unbearable for me. But I have found a life for myself where I can relate to people around me, and find jobs and pastimes where the amount of interaction and type of interaction is at a tolerable and pleasant level. It took a long time and as I always say it is the strip clubs and brothels that helped me to find this equilibrium and peace. In fact, it was my wife who found my condition out for me when trying to find out a reason why I am like I am: Schizoid Personality Disorder. That is me.

I always read people become more conservative and Conservative as they get older

I always read people become more conservative, and Conservative, as they get older, and as a romantic anarchist/socialist in my younger years, 20s, I didn’t think that would happen to me.Yet now I do find myself so conservative; I prefer to stay home rather than travel, and I find in order to get out of the European Union madhouse I will have to vote Conservative as well, as they are the only ones (of the big three) offering a referendum. Fucking Labour I hate them, they are still so rabidly pro-Europe despite all the evidence stacking up against it, they opened the doors to all these endless waves of immigrants when they were in power, and they won’t do anything about the welfare system despite it being so obvious that so many people do just milk the system and live a life of leisure while the rest of us pay for it. God, it is true; I am becoming a Conservative. Kill me now. Fucking Ed Milliband, if he hadn’t betrayed his brother we would have a decent genuinely talented Labour leader. One of the greatest Prime Ministers we now will never have; like Michael Portillo. There I go again!